泪桥

有好一段日子没有写下自己的心情、自己的感觉了。
以前，很习惯写日记。后来，不写了。有了部落格，喜欢在部落格记载点滴。
后来，不写了。因为不想把自己坦荡的裸露在别人面前。

今晚，选择写，多少也因为想写下自己此刻的心理，想着的，最近想过的事。

BEYOND NEXT STAGE 演唱会会在十月在云顶举行，可惜，只剩下叶世荣与黄贯中来。黄家强没来。仅剩的BEYOND三子都不能来齐。。。 所有曾经为他们疯狂的朋友，都不愿意掏钱来看。原因很简单。。。他们觉得，BEYOND的摇滚精神永长存，但剩下来的团员，诚意和精神都不足。所以，都不愿和我去看。而我，看来要错过了。

唉......

我毕业了。对。我毕业了。毕业整四个月了。毕业典礼也快过一个多月了。我在白沙罗一间公司工作。用生命赚取零钱来继续生活。
一次，还被我的一位比我资深八个月的同事当着我面前，向我老板说了许多关于我完全不是事实的指责。说了很多。让我觉得很委屈。但是，我会让他知道，他面对的，是一个绝对比他还要高品格，更宽宏大量，更谦虚的人。我还必须天天面对他，还要装作若无其事。但我会忍。因为，我觉得老板因该是一个还可以慧眼识英雄的人。不会让这种卑鄙小人得逞！就算老板瞎了眼，我也不会让他得逞！死蔡粪，咋们走着瞧！！！

想起都火冒三仗！！！ 巴不得把它的脸塞进一堆粪里！
气！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

凌晨两点，N 年前的自己，这种时候是最感性的时候。因为都会听听感性的歌，写些感性的文字。
不晓得是不是太久没有把自己沉浸在文学的染缸里，今晚想写的心情，都是乎表现不出来。

九月的天空，一时像火炉般酷热，一时大雨又倾盆而下。许多人都病了。我还病了两次。真的不是一个好月。
好累啊。。。好想睡了。
最近爱上了伍佰的《泪桥》，因为觉得很好听。
我把握未来的一年，都卖给了“维努希”。希望一切顺顺利利，别让愚笨自大狂妄无知的同事乱我好事。
用生命来换取钱财，拿来买吃的用的，好维持生命。
在拿有限的生命继续换取更多的钱。。。
然后这过程就一直重复，直到有一天，头脑不再有氧，心脏不再跳，眼看不见，耳听不到，没有了知觉与感觉。。。然后生命结束。。。 。。。

难道人生就该这样？
我可以捍卫我仅有的尊严吗？！
我一定要站稳立场，坚持自己的信念和理念！

马来西亚，晚安。
地球人，晚安。
爹娘弟妹。。。 晚安。
宝贝，爱你。晚安。 美梦！

Graduating...Graduate....Graduated

p/s: this will be the 1st blog in more then half year. it records my immediate memories and feelin i had after my last paper ever in MMU, the place where i spent 5 years of my most precious life at. english is rusty coz lack of usage.


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6.00am, The Morning Call

Shaf woke me up by calling me at 6am sharp. Wat a fren, haha ^o^. I answered his call with a fresh and awake voice, n then i fell asleep back. the next time i open my eye, it was 7.34am. Exam was at 9am, i need to go out at 8.30am, fetch lingyee to her company. Rush up from bed, i go through the chapters and short notes with those equations tat i need to memorize... and the morning seem shorter then ever!

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8.50am, The Grand Hall
Met Shaf and Aik Haw infront of the Grand Hall and we walk into the Final Battlefield. I was anxious, and i was exciting. The time was ticking. I look through the questions. I smile. This time, Maths is no longer my BARRIER to graduate. i can do this...its not that difficult. (Electronics is... my BIG BARRIER to graduate...stil unknow whether pass or fail... BODERLINE!!!)

11.00am, Final Battle Ended
"Dear Students, Time's Up, you must stop your writing now. Make sure you fill in the required information, and it is your responsibility to ensure that the answer sheet is submitted to the invigilator. Any answer sheets that is taken out of the exam hall shall not be accepted under any circumstances.... " Chief Invigilator Dr. XXX XXX ask us to stop writing. And stop writing i did. i was calculating my marks. hmm... a firm pass i suppose. Great. Answer sheets are collected, and after they calculate the amount of answer sheets, i proceed out of the hall with Shaf, and plenty of feelings flooded into my mind... my heart... my whole body.

I walk out the grand hall as a student for the last time. Juniors everywhere. Shaf had another exam tmr, so i din went crazy shouting or hugging with him. This also means that no matter how happy, how emotional attached i am, its all about me and myself only. I felt like jumping and shouting, and mayb everyone will think i am crazy.

Hard to believe, it all ended just like that. The very last paper. As a student.

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5 years in MMU, plus 1 year foundation in MMU Melacca. its 6 fxxcking Long Years. i came across thousands of chicks from all over malaysia, and even some middle east country, met thousands of ppl from all over the malaysia and some from other country, been spending thousands and thousands of my parent's money here. Got my 1st NIKE here also, my 1st Converse also, my 1st Air, my 1st Lebron...

get to play my favorite basketball, and my SIFU (house mate) aka Ah Han will teach me the way to play better... learn to format computer.. (yeah, format computer) learn my drumming skill, learn composing and playing in a band, learn to communicate, learn to have fun and mix with people around. Joining all sorts of activity to occupied my time so that i din end up a stupid COMPUTER GAMER. i had to say, I AM PROUD NOT TO BE A GAMER!!! i spend time hanging out with chicks, frens, makan minum watch movie, all the good days!!! YAHOOO!!!!!!


Thinking back of the old times, the old days...from hostel...till cyberia B3-6-10...till the current C1-10-1, different place, different ways of living, but the same good people that flourishes my life, leaving unforgettable memories for me, help building up the Ming Wei that you all know today, a bigger, fatter, better Ming Wei.

Tears of bitter-sweet memories, tears of joy, tears of life!

All the best to all Graduated Student. May you all have a save and successful journey of life! My sincere wishes to all! Love you all!!!

Ming Wei Rocks!!!
MMU ROCKS!!!
OPTICAL MAJOR ROCKS!!!
MY FRENS ROCKS!!!
NOT MY FREN also ROCKS!!!
Peace out! lmL

Please remember, Ming Wei used to ROCK HERE~!!!