This is a msg courtesy of Guy B's BLOG

quoted from guy B's blog
"Isit wat a gal said.....is always a lie? or..... do gals just like to tell lies to me? She told me that she enjoys her single life, she enjoy the freedom she had. She told me that she do not want to hav another relationship for this current moment...no, not so soon.

I really think that was just an excuse for her to refuse me. I really do think so. She state this phrase in somewhere.... wit a cartoon pic of a gal helding a guy's hand. The wordings are " hope sumday i can find sum1 dat cAn make me love him so much" . hmmm....

i went to find my fren werewolf to ask about it. he just listen. he is always a superb listener. in the mean time he gave me some good advice too... Once in a while, tat is.

Again, he said, when a gal say no to you, what she means is NO. u wanted to hav another shot and spend somemore time on the person, fine. But do not waste too much time. tats for sure."

Guy B...Gal A...

Met wit Guy B today..... he told me something real strange. b4 this....he is after gal A, and... he actually had alot of plan for gal A... he showed me his handphone calender...so many plans for gal A. Book movie ticket for gal A... go movie wit gal A... buy this n tat for gal A.... gal A's arrival at airport... go out yam cha wit gal A....

But strange, guy B told me that he nv really carried out wat he planned for gal A. "Why?" i asked wit full curiousity. "i hav no idea", he said. he told me tat...its so easy for him to plan.but when it comes to carry it out..... he just aint motivated. he hav no idea why.

"mayb is because she rejected you before? " i said.
"mayb... but i really regret not doin those things for her... at least i should hav done more for her, she might hav different feeling towards me."

"when a gal say she had no feelings towards you... 90% confidence level, you can just let go and forget about it." i said.
"just hard for me..... its not that i am not letting go..... mayb.... because i am not satisfy....i jsut wanna try another time. but.....the other time was so damn hard for me to carry out. "

anyway...now guy B had already let gal A go... at least this is wat he always tell himself and tell me.

we human, sometimes, when the thing is not meant to be ours... no matter how hard we tried, it will stil go away. Just like sometimes, when soemthing is not ours, there's no use we force ourselves....or force the others to coupe with us. It will only make everyone even harder to breathe, even harder to be friends.

Don't know... days haven been real good for guy B... and the same goes for me. well, both of us, same heart, same soul. Mayb that's why we can be so close frens together. hahaha....

tonite, we hav a nice beer section.... in the balcony of my house. the beautiful starry sky is our companion, we talk, we crap and we drink till late nite, then we sleep under the dark starry sky, wit clouds as our blanket.......

Early Morning, 4 OclocK, wat am i doing?? i am thinking.

2nd day after my 4 day 4 nite trip in Bangkok, Thailand. Now, sitting infront of my computer, i am thinking.... my memories flew through time.....

Jim told me just nw, he would leave banting sooner then he scheduled. he is leaving tml. so soon... after that, no more jim huay, no more my good old chu chu in banting. he wil b in bukit jalil. no more yam cha wit him d. no more morib wit him. no more swimming wit him. no more breakfast wit him, no more mee hun ke and yun tun mian wit him. no more fun time, no more cool time, no more sadtime to share to gether.

is this the way that our life suppose to be? frens aren't forever? we need to b seperated from each other, from our good old pal to live a new life? is tat wat we call..... Growing Up??

Bangkok trip was totally superb. but not in the mood to talk abuot it tonite. mayb some other times when i am more.... in mood.

tonite, gal A send sms to guy B. this is duno the 3rd time or 2nd time, she send sms to him for nothing. guy B was glad, even gal A n guy B cant b couple, at least once in a while, gal A remember, there is a guy B in the other part of the country. but, guy B just dont felt so happy after calling her. its like... theres stil many things, tat guy B wanted to share wit gal A, but.....always, gal A is so bz.... sometimes she is outside wit frens. sometimes she is outside wit ppl. if she were to b in the room, the line would b so unclear tat guy B can hardly listen to wat gal A said. n tat makes guy B refuse to talk longer. just now guy B called gal A, she was outside wit frens enjoying some beautiful nite view in the campus. guy B wanted to talk longer, but gal A said her phone batt was running low, and would end anytime. its like a poison knife stabbing into guy B, killing all his will to share his story wit gal A. gal A never knew, evenn guy B cant love her, she stil meant alot to guy B. at least,more then other gals to him.

gal A said she wil misscall him when she reached home, but she did not. just like usual. guy B was numb, though stil there is a little feelin. no one can b totally numb rite~~ guy B told me all about it. wat can i do? i am just a 3rd person in this. i can only b a good listener. guy B stuff...had been dragging for too long. his feeling to wards gal A is fading.... n fading... he got no more energy to love her. he is badly injured, hurt. welll, wat can i say, love sometimes just hurt ppl alot.

i am quite low tonite...at least at this moment i am. b4 this....its ok for me. but now.... really abit sad feeling, mayb bcoz of the song i am listening. mayb bcoz jim tell me he is leaving so soon. mayb, i am just too sensitive, thinking too much.

yes, i think i am....mayb thinking too much. hmmm......
its been long since the last time i wrote something in this blog. many things........sometimes i prefer to stick n keep to myself. but...even i wrote something here.... who wil b so kind to read all of it? haha....ppl wil just drop by, look at the title, then off they go.
just like me in ur life, u in my life, we are just a passenger in each other's life. it's just tat moment tat brought us together. the timing. after the timing is over, we will b heading for our own destiny seperately.
i once told eunice this. she had tears after she listen to it.

its bad, but its true. how many frenship can last forever?

think again... for example, ur grand mother, how many frens she hav now? how often u see her talking to her frens? where did all her best frens go?
its pitty, we r meant to b forgetful. we forget everything. a frenship... when left aside, after 1 year....2 years..... u stil remember. u wanted to call to recontact, but u just seem to bz....too lazy....too.... many excuses to not call. 3 years...4 years.... passed. in a coincident, u met wit him/her again, u took his/her phone number, promise to find someday out together n chit chat about the good old days.... but....another year passed. y u did not call, u urself cant tell y. then, another 5 years passed. u've been so bz, one day u remember tat fren of urs. u wanted to call. then only u realize that, the contact u hav 6 years ago...was no longer used by the fren of urs....

n eversince...u nv met wit him again. ........................

y we need to hav such regret? to make our life more meaningful? more beautiful but pittiful?
no...... its all about us. u think of a fren, if u wanna contact again, just go ahead. we don't hav too many another 2o years. we dont hav too many decades.....and we dont hav too any annual.

life is short. show the one u love....that u love them. that u care for them. tell them, let them know. don't just keep to urself.
tell ur frens...how much u like them, how much they meant to you. if u cant tell, write, just like me. write out. let everyone know. who knws, after a seperation, we might not see him/her again?

its so lucky....so coincident tat we can met wit the frens around us now. appreciate ... really. life is too short....too many things to complete in so limited time.

hmmm...i've been crapping too much tonite.
its so empty in me now. i felt so much like loving some1, but theres no one in my mind. i felt so much like missing some 1, but there isn't anyone there for me to miss. i wanted to share my adventure, my ups and downs wit some one that i can click wit, but there isnt anyone so suitable in my mind. i wanted to love some 1, but who?

my fren guy B used to hav a femal fren that can share all these things wit him. tat gal.... gal A. but after he started to express his feelin to gal A, somehow their relationship changed, and he can no longer tell her everything and b frank wit her d. y?? i hav no idea. while the gal felt their relationship is just normal n as they used to b, but guy B is feeling changes, mayb is bcoz he is too sensitive, mayb bcoz he is thinking too much. i cant tell, coz i am not experienced enough. but i sure can tell, guy B is a nice and good guy. at least i think he is. just tat....his timing is super bad. and tat makes all the different.

sleepy d... guess i should sleep...wit all these nice songs accompanying me.
nite, guy B, nite, gal A. nitez.. all my frens...my family....and some1 that i love.
u all meant so much to me, and u all help build up the me i am today. thank you~ love u all.

-_- ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz.........